I turned 30..... Who Cares?!?!

It was my birthday 1 week ago I turned 30 and you know what? I am proud of every year!!! I have yet to feel it, I still get asked for ID 90% of the time. Here where I live the "legal" age to do anything (smoke, drink) is 19 years, so to be 11 years past that and still get asked for ID makes being 30 pretty liveable in my mind!!

If someone asked me if I was 19 again? Yeah at heart because that is how I feel inside, but NO would be the answer I would give you, I am proud of the years I have put on, I wouldn't give them up for the world!! Each and every year has made me who I am today!!

At the young age of 14 I met the man that is now my dear husband, and although at that time we met had you told me I was going to marry this man I would have laughed in your face, called you daft, and walked away giggling at the joke you just made.... However as fate had it you would have been right, we married young I was 20 he was 22 and everyone thought we were STUPID!!! At the age of 21 I gave birth to our first child our Beautiful Daughter, then along came our second A Handsome Son when I was 23, A Second Beautiful Girl entered my life at the age of 25 and at that point I had decided that I had, had all the children I wanted or needed to make my life satisfying (wrong again), a second little handsome son entered my life when I was age 26, notice a pattern here? I was wrong a lot? or maybe that every time I think my life is great and perfect, every time I think I got things figured out Life throws me another fast ball!!!

So although all of this seems like I have it great and perfect, I don't trust me!!! I am Happy, actually probably Happier today then I ever thought I would be. Now don't get me wrong I don't think I am happier then I was 10 years ago, only more experienced. I have had a lot of shitty learning curves to go along with that experience, you will learn of these as time goes.

The biggest thing that turning 30 has taught me is WHO CARES?!?!?! Really who cares??? Well for my 30th Birthday my Hubby through me a Party and I entitle it the WHO CARES party, because the ones WHO CARE but don't mind were in attendance, and the ONES WHO MIND and don't care were not!!! Of the 20 to almost 30 people who were in attendance guess how many of them (other then my children) were blood relatives care to guess??? 1 that is right only 1 a cousin, a cousin that I rarely saw growing up and only in the recent years have had the pleasure of getting to know (unfortunately under some of the worst circumstances) she is somebody I am told, I am a lot alike, and I have the rest of my life to figure out how much!!! I have 2 siblings neither of which were there!?! Where were they?? Too busy?? I guess!! Self absorbed?? I guess!! I will touch on that as time goes on!!!

Turning 30 brought a lot of realizations for me like “ WHO CARES?” but, it also brought a lot of work and I have a lot of soul searching to do! I said that for my 30th Birthday I wanted to do something I normally would not do something uncharacteristic for me and I did I got my first tattoo, not just any old unreflective tattoo, NO WAY!!! I got a tattoo that can not be duplicated, one that may look generic but when you get to know its meaning it holds a whole different light. This Tattoo is something I never thought I would actually do, it was something I had spoken about but if you had asked me ten years ago if I would ever get a tattoo the answer probably would have been NO WAY!!!! I think mainly it would be because of lack of guts!!!

On That note I think turning thirty that way has brought me guts… the guts to do all the things I normally wouldn’t do, say the things I normally wouldn’t say, stand up to the people I normally wouldn’t stand up to, but most of ALL say “NO” to the ones I normally would not!!! The ones who have been taking advantage of me for a long, long, really long time!! I look forward to year 30 I truly hope it holds the unexpected starting with the tattoo and onwards, and most of all I look forward to sharing it with those who are willing to read!! As for the ones who don’t well….

WHO CARES?!?!?!