Butterfly's fly away!!!!
So I know it has been a long, long time since I have posted anything on here, and while I would love to touch on why and what has happened since my last post this post has a more important story to be told!!! I promise I will be putting up a TON of posts soon about all that has transpired, please bare with me it is in the works!!
Today however is a special day, which deserves a special story!!! Today marks a very big Milestone in my life! Nine years ago today a very special person entered my life and changed everything important to me forever!!!! I lost control of everything that was real in my life, all meaning to my life up until 9 years ago was then and there futile and minuscule at that juncture in my life I received my very first true and real reality check!! It was the most wonderful and surreal moment of my life and I wouldn't trade it in for the world!!
Nine years ago today I gave birth to my first born, a Caterpillar was born, I was now a mother, and this little itty bitty thing trusted ME to help it grow. I was all it new and all it needed!!! I was given the gift of Guiding and Loving, at that moment I realized that even though I thought I was an adult, I too still had a lot of growing and learning to do myself !!! I learned at that moment that regardless of my numerical age was as nieave as that little girl I was holding in my arms!!!
At that moment I made a promise to that little girl that I would love her, protect her, keep her safe, keep her warm, and keep her mine!!!! Well I decided at that moment that instead of trying to be the perfect mother, I was not going to attempt to fool her or myself, there is no perfect mother, there is no perfect child and there is no perfect human being!!! I promised her that I would not just guide her, but grow with her. I promised to be the perfect person she would need to help her grow.
I was fooling myself with one thing though, I could not keep her mine, and now nine years later I have learned that I dont want to, even if I could why would I? I have watched this little Catterpiller grow and now as her life speeds up a part of me wants to slow it all down, her life is beginning to form she is caccooning and molding herself into whatever it is she will become and as I look at her photos from birth to now, I have no doubt in my mind that when this beautiful caterpillar turns into a beautiful butterfly, with tears in my eyes I will say butterfly FLY AWAY!!!!
