Life challenges me yet AGAIN!!!!

So life has handed me the challenges of challenges I started this blog thinking it was going to be one of those blogs that every blogger says you HAVE to do like a right of passage or something. What I am apparently supposed to do is take the fourth picture of the fourth file and blog about it or the person in it.

My mother has challenged me too, she knows how hard this whole situation has been for me and although she has not taken sides (I don’t expect her or anyone to this is our argument) she is supportive to Both of us and just hopes that things will resolve themselves or that we will let time heal our wounds and resolve things ourselves!!! Her challenge to me was this, before getting out of bed each morning think of 5 things I am thankful for in life, 5 reasons to get out of bed each day and they have to be different reasons everyday!!! Wow that can be tough but I am up for it!!!

Which brings me to the blog of the day you are probably wondering why the 2 things have anything to do with each other but well they do you see because although you can’t see her face the 4th picture of the 4th file is the one I have posted and IRONICALLY enough it is my Sister!!!!

So although she will probably never read this I want to tell you about MY SISTER!!!

My sister is a Sweet, kind, and caring person, she has a lot of love in her heart and in everything she does she is always thinking of others. All my life as a child I wanted to be just like her I wanted to dress like her talk like her and most of all be friends with her, BEST friends. I shared with her my deepest and darkest secrets and worries, she was/is like my second mother. We had our fights but we always got through. She is the 2nd most beautiful person I know my Mother is the 1st. We had a lot of the same friends in our teen and early adult years, I loved that because she was willing to have her little sister around!!! She is a peace maker and she wants ALL to get along. When she is hurt she cries and when you cut her she bleeds because she is Human!!! She was my maid of honour at my wedding and I would have it no other way!!! She was present for the birth of all 4 of my children, and was able to see all of them take their first breath!! She loves all of my children with all of her heart and would die for all of them, she loves them with the same love I do!!! If I died tomorrow she would be the closest biological connection my children have to me, and I know that she would keep me alive in their hearts. She has always been somewhat of a hero to me!!! Even though just like she is in this photo she has turned her back on me because she needs time and space, I will not turn my back to her!!!

Dear sister even though you may never read this, and we are angrier with each other than we ever have been I want to say you are going to be reason #1 for me to get out of bed tomorrow morning! You are my Sister and I love you and I will wait for you!!! Even though every moment that we don’t speak is ripping apart my heart I have faith in the lord above that this anger will not last forever!!!

So I hope you now see how both challenges are connected so I send this off into the void with the prayer that the Good Lord will help her meet me half way!!!!