Changing Channels in LIFE

Channel 1
Wow, it has been a while since I last blogged and to my 6 followers that I know of and those I don’t know of I truly apologize but here is an update on my life!!!!
After heeding the advise of my brilliant mother and diligently finding 5 new reasons every morning for me to wake up and get out of bed and deal with the riggers of day to day life, things have really changed for me. My reasons have ranged from little reasons like, the dog needs to pee and the kids are choosing to ignore her and I can’t anymore, to reasons such as I want to meet someone new and possibly change their life in some small way today, either way I have done it and you want to know something? It has worked not that I doubted the power of my own positive thinking, but I was in a position then that lead me to feel that there was no room for movement, I felt TRAPPED!!! I felt like a deaf mute at Bingo, that had bingo, trying to yell BINGO!!! I couldn’t even whistle!!! I felt stuck, I felt like I was a kid again playing on the escalader in the big department store trying to go up the down, but I am older and less energetic and loosing the battle, I was getting an ass wuppin’ and buy who???….. I will tell you who…… ME!!!! I was holding me back!
I have come to the conclusion, that in all reality I am the only one who stops myself from getting out of bed, I am the only one who creates the bad mood I am in, I am the only one who will keep myself from getting to the top of that escalator, not my age, not my size, not my health, they are just the things that I did to myself by succumbing to my own fears and negative thinking……. Me and only me!!!! By my trying to blame others for why my life is not on the track that I wanted it to be or hoped it would be, I am only making it worse and I truly believe that when you believe in the positive through higher powers be it God or Ala or Abba you will have it, and it will be yours. We are OUR own worst enemies. I now realise that although our minds were created to have so much good impacts on the world around us they are also through our freedom of choice a tool of destruction, if WE choose to use them as such…… WE CHOOSE how we destruct or build our lives day to day!!!
I choose to build, build up moving up is the only way I CHOOSE to go from this day forward and this is the promise I made to myself!!! My choice is to get to the top of the dang escalader…
Since this revolution in my life I am on a whole new road, I am traveling down a path I never thought was even an option for my life, it isn’t anything I could have imagined or dreamed …. IT’S BETTER!!!
Three days after making this promise to MYSELF my Husband and I made a great leap, a leap we thought was farther out of our reach then it really was…. WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!!! It is a brand new home fresh and clean with no other memories… a clean slate, a unpainted canvas for us to paint our own memories in!!! Our own house to finally call home!!! DH got a tattoo that matches the letters on mine to signify our children waiting for us after this chapter of our lives is completed. His tattoo is different and significant to him, I don’t feel tired anymore. I don’t sweat the small stuff, I smile all the time, I feel as though I have a life long perma-grin. I have let go of all that is/was weighing me down!!!! I can’t change the past and I don’t choose to, the past is what made me who I am today I only choose to learn from it. I don’t want to plan my future I want to enjoy it, and the only way to do that is to make the best of everything that is happening NOW!!!
I want to LIVE and I am. I can’t create the future, I can’t see it either I can only look forward to it!!! I am happy and now I have people telling me they see it they tell me I am glowing and I stand straighter, I feel taller, I speak with much more confidence and reverence not just for myself but for those I encounter daily.
I am HAPPY SOOOO HAPPY. I go to bed at night like a child at Christmas unable to wait for morning. My life has done a complete 180 and I have no clue what tomorrow will bring me, I don’t want or care to, I know it will be great because I will it to be so!!! Through the power of my spirit, and my GOD it will be wonderful because that is how it is intended to be, every day is a gift, not a given!!!
So as I pack up my life in boxes and embark on this wonderful journey (even packing is fun) I enjoy the look back on memory lane and the life I have had with excitement about what it will become last Friday I registered the Kids to their NEW school and we Received the KEY to our home I think of it as the KEY to happiness for the rest of our lives. Our last few weeks have been a little stressful but not a bad stressful an exciting stressful, we are enjoying the excitement of life and moving on some couples or families go away on extravagant trips to be together but this is all we want to do and the only place we want to be I feel as though we are finally going HOME!!!

Only to no Home we have ever known before!!!!