I thought there would be more time to give you a back ground on myself and where when and what my life growing up was like but as my luck has it NOPE!!! So in a nutshell you already know I am 30 well I am the youngest of 3 I have an older sister and brother and as much as I hate them I love them doubly!!! I recently had a “falling out” with my brothers future wife(F.W. From this point onwards) anyways since this disagreement he is (from what I can only imagine) forbidden to speak to me she did the same to him with our mother nearly 5 years ago and he has yet to reconcile with our mother.... She is really good at making him hold her grudges for her!!! Anyhow I am now in the same boat with our Mother as I am sure my Sister will soon be too, it is only a matter of time!!! So he and I have not spoken in app. 6 months and my sister does still speak with him when he can sneak her in literally!!!
Well just days before my birthday I had a Difference of opinions over the phone with my dear Sister and the conversation ended abruptly. I new calling her back would go no where so I simply sent her an email telling her that I was hurt by what she said to me and that I would let her be the first to contact me when she was ready. She pretend not to see the email even though I new she LIVES on her PC but she called asking where I was on my birthday, as I was supposed to spend that day with her and her new baby but given the circumstances never went!! After all I never heard from her so she needed more time!!! Well there in squats the TOAD!!! My husband told her that she may want to check her Email and find in that e-mail the reason I was not there!!!!
Well this transpiring has led to a long too long drawn out argument that I am sure will get resolved but has also instilled that fact that I need to clean house, and eliminate the stresses in it, or even the people that cause the stresses. I have also come to realize that the relationship I had with my sister is gone and will never be the same, and while this saddens me greatly, I now know that I need to remember the good times and fog out the bad.I need to use the treasured moments for exactly what memories are there for, to trigger a smile, think of the moments that made us happy because they are after all the reasons we keep going through every day in this sometimes messy thing called life, it is the reason we get up every day, it is the reason we stress, and most of all it is our reason to keep moving forward!!! That is exactly what I have decided to do, I will keep moving forward, that is after all the motto the Robinson's lived by in the Disney movie Meet the Robinson's and well I think it is a pretty damn good idea.... Keep moving forward!!!! I will get up every day and keep making new memories, Treasure the old and wonderful ones, and leave out the bad... That is the wonderful thing about the human brain, we can use our own editing.... and although my new great memories may not include the same people in my old happy ones, I can in my heart be assured they will include people who love and appreciate me as much as I do them!!! I will always have the old memories to make me smile, because that is one thing NO amount of arguing, big or small, can ever take away from me!!! I will always keep my siblings and memories of them close to my heart, as I have now learned that is where they belong, and that is how we get along best.... in a memory!!!
That said, those of you who have read this blog and post before will notice that this post has been drastically edited and that is because of a comment left that made me realize somethings are better left in a fog!!! Thank you Daniella my house cleaning I have started!!!
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